ONE YEAR! And it sho is nice to be with someone as amazing as Brian is for a year. We're supposed to have some kind of dinner reservations Saturday, and we'll probably just see a movie on Thursday for V-day. I've never celebrated V-day with anyone before. Usually it consisted of my mother getting me chocolate because she felt sorry for my lonely ass. BUT NOT ANYMORE!

School is bleh. It is increasingly difficult to get myself to wake up in the morning. Partly because my room is so dark and it just doesn't feel right waking up when it's still dark. I think I might take the curtains down so it's easier to wake up, and then I won't feel so bleh in the morning.

I got a raise at work which is nice! It makes working all the more lovely. Too bad I'll be quitting in August...gots to focus of school, maynnnnnnnn!

Lately I've been thinking that I'll quit my job and after my lease expires, I'll move back into my parents' house and just go to school. Lately, I've been so tired. I've been working and going to school for four years straight, and I really feel like that at the pace I'm going, I need to just stop working and go to school full time in order to get finished when I want to. I don't know if I'll not work the entire time I'm in school. Maybe just stop working for a year or two. Right now, I feel like I'm in a standstill. School is standing still, and work definitely stands still. I need to progress in something that doesn't involve people's butts. I'm gonna talk to my parents about it tonight. I hope they'll let me just mooch off of them for a while.

I haven't completely made up my mind, but I need to by May. I got time.

My history final was extremely exhausting. And then after it I thought I had another exam, but it turned out that I missed it completely by two days. HOW DID I NOT REALIZE THAT?? So I'm screwed and I have to retake the class. I was so embarrassed yesterday on campus. I was crying while I was walking to my professor's office, and that building was far away from where I was. So about a bajillion people saw me crying. But I really didn't care at that time. I was so tired and stressed, and I really just wanted to die at that point. I was hoping to run by my professor's office while I was still crying, but he wasn't there. So yes, I am officially screwed and will have to pay $400 to retake that stupid required class. But maybe I'll make an A since I already know everything. I'll try to look on the brighter side of things...

I bought a new tv. It's a 26" LCD flat screen, and boy is it AMAZING!!!!!!!

I love Thanksgiving holiday. What other holiday would we be allowed to stuff our face and NOT GO TO SCHOOL or WORK?! Praise the Indians, for once!

My history class is ridiculously hard. I took a test yesterday that was possibly one of the hardest tests I've ever taken. I did okay on my last test, and I'm very concerned about this one. The essay TOOK FOREVER to write so I had to hurry it up or I wouldn't finish.

English is crusting up my life, and that really surprises me because I'm usually really good in my English classes. My last essay I got a 25 out of 50! YIKES! But apparently, that was one of the highest grades in the class. Maybe if my professor would stop being such a hard core bitch, she would see that this an introductory class, and we're not all going to write like novelists. AND! Our topics are shit! Shitty topics make shitty papers. It's science.

Anyway, last week was hell because I really wanted to do better than just okay on my test. I studied for hours every day, and I hope the outcome shows it. It's been difficult not seeing friends at all for at least a few weeks. I could hardly see Brian, and if we didn't have a class together, we would never see each other. I really hope school doesn't screw up my relationship. Or I will FUCK THEIR SHIT UP! Not really.

I checked my bank account today. Boy was that depressing. And the worst of it is that I still have a check of $145 that hasn't been posted yet. I HATE MONEY AND I HATE THAT THINGS COST MONEY!!! My car battery died and I had to put an end to its six years of existence. But Bertie is now alive and well with her new battery. I seriously didn't drive my car for a day, and I missed it more than I miss people. That car has been so great to me, and I will always love Bertie. I also miss Matilda! She was my first car, but she had too many problems. Mainly because I drove her around without any oil. OOOOOOOOPS! Live and learn...

I feel like I'm always at work or school. I hate living this way, but I keep telling myself that it's only for a little while, and it should be all over with. In maybe five more years. By the way I'm moving along at least.

Today has been nonstop, and even though it's close to midnight, it's still going. One thing's for sure, I definitely get more sleep now that school is back in session. Shouldn't it be the other way around? Anyway, I'm either at school or at work most of the time, and for a few hours every night, I get a little time for myself to read or watch whatever junk is on TV. Though during the summer I was wishing I had more to do, now I wish I had less. I guess I'll never be happy with the current situation. It's either to much or too little. Never a happy median.

All is grand with school. I have some really good professors and the work load isn't overbearing, I'm just in school for most of the morning, then I head straight to work after only a 15 minute lunch break. I work until six or so, get home, eat, do homework, and then finally it's my time. MY TIME!!! To do whatever I feel. Lately, I've been reading a really good book called Atonement by Ian McEwan. I'd recommend it. It's very interesting and fine writing!

Right now I'm baking a cake and it smells so good. I'd better go check on it!

Dear Doc Bowman,

I could have sworn I saw you yesterday when I was in the Eagle Student Services building heading to my first class early Wednesday morning. I saw your Hawaiian shirt tucked into your jeans, and your sleeves folded up. Your mustache was gray and long, just like yours. But then your head turned, and it wasn't you after all. You could never imagine how disappointed I was.

You will always have a lasting impression on me. You changed my life and I can never thank you enough for all the things you taught me.

Sincerely,
Katherine Bynum
AP US History B1
9-6-07

School started and only two days after school began, I, of course, came down with a terrible sinus cold. I feel icky all day and just want to sleep through it all. But school and work have left me no time to sleep as much as I'd like. I started running a slight fever on Wednesday evening, but it shortly went away thanks to a little ibuprofen. And now I'm constantly medicated with Advil Allergy Sinus, which has the great pseudoephedrine. I swear, it's the only stuff that makes me feel better for a wee bit. It's too bad you can only buy it in limited quantities, otherwise I would take it whenever I feel the least bit poorly. I was hoping this would all be relieved by today, but it seems it will be lasting for a few more days. I really can't stand being sick on long holidays when I'm off from school and work, but I guess it is the most convenient time to get sick. It's just a downer. I was hoping to have fun.

School isn't too terrible. I do have some good professors, but one of my instructors is just terrible. She's brand new and doesn't know how to present information in an understandable manner, and then it takes her four or five times to repeat a definition that is much needed for copying. It really infuriates me that I'm paying for this class and my instructor has no idea what she's doing, and it shows. I had to drop one of my history classes. It was 8 o'clock in the morning, and my professor was the most monotone and boring person I've ever encountered. I was falling asleep on the first day, so I decided it would be best not to enter that class again, and just drop it and get my money back. Now I'm only in four classes, so that means I'll have to take additional summer courses to get back on track again. These next few years will be boring. All to do with school, but I suppose it's better to get this all out of the way and graduate.